It has been a long day today. I really hate funerals , viewings and such. It adds so much stress to my all ready stressed out life. But when your Aunt passes away what can you do but go and see family. I didn't go to the funeral just to the family viewing and I only stayed a few minutes. I did go to the family dinner after wards. It was strange, the only people I knew were my cousins and their wives. 90% of those who went to the dinner were my cousins children. I have met some of them years ago when they were children but as adults I don't know any of them.
My brother came to take my Mom to the family viewing. What a shock!!! the things he comes to surprise me. He did 'nt come when Mom was in the hospital for surgery. Yes he called her once but out of the BLUE he comes today of all days. What a waste of time he didn't even stay to visit our mother. He and his wife stayed long enough to take Mom to the viewing and as soon as Mom was tired and ready to go home that was it. He stayed for just over a hour and it takes him close to three hours to get here. You would think he would spend more time with MOm but NOT HIM.
I know that I should get over it and let bygones be byegones but I can't. I have spent most of last year taking care of my MOm while she was ill. He would not come when I needed some support emotionally but then I should have known that he does not have emotions. I was told several times that I should just expect the worse. Quote" You know that Mom will not live forever so you might as well stop thinking that she is going to get better. She most likely will not make it so why stress over it. Everyone dies some time so get used to it." We had words last year while Mom was in the hosptial in SLC. Accourding to him I lie about every thing when it comes to Mom's care. I know that I need to let it go and just accept him for who he is.

I am so tired to night but yet I can't fall alseep. I don't know if it is because of my achey legs, hips and back or just wound too tight.
Some fun news Jayden cut his first tooth yesterday evening. Alicia said that it is really sharp and small. He is growing up so fast just like the other two do. It seems like it was yesterday that I held my first grandson instead of being close to three yrs.
Well I am going to try to sleep now as I have lots to do today , it is suposed to snow today and Monday a big storm again. I hope that it does snow big time. I want to get this smog out of the air soon.
Grammye